I wanted to talk to you about the dark side of MH when I say dark side I talk about the deep dark hole and what we do to cope. This is the place where u feel like you are at your wit’s end, you feel like a failure, you feel like you are not good enough, you feel like your not worthy of living.
To cope with these feelings I use to use self-harm, drugs or alcohol. These were my lowest points. My deep dark hole was the hardest and scariest place. I never knew if I would get to the next day and honestly didn’t care. It’s the worse place to be, you have no control of your feelings.
I lost a lot of people in my life, I got into the wrong crowds, I tried to attempt suicide by throwing myself in front of a truck while drugged up, but I was lucky my friends chased me and grabbed me off the road in time.
It took many years to get out of my hole, but not without the scars I carry, but they are the reason I am why I’m still here now. I no longer do drugs or drink alcohol as a means of coping, but without them, I don’t think I would be here now. I don’t recommend it as a means, due to it not getting rid of my issues.
I know how hard this hole is and no means easy to get out of. I still go to therapy, I still have bad days, I still take medication to help me cope, but I know there is more to life, and I deserve to be happy and so does everyone. Supporting each other will get us through it.