You know when you have to have test done, but your anxieties get in the way, that has become my dilemma.
It all started a couple of weeks ago while I had a CT scan. The CT scan was checking my head, while doing that they picked up a lump near my jaw.
They are unsure what it is or why it’s there they think it my be a lymph nodes, so they have ask for more scans.
Here’s where my dilemma comes in.
Every time I go to make the appointment to have the scan done my anxiety goes through the roof and I can’t push myself to make the appointment.
Yes, I know I need to get it checked, but the fear in me out way the need to check. I have truly had enough. Every time I go to a doctor the add a new condition to my list and I couldn’t bear anymore.
Anxiety is a powerful thing and can control what you do, it impacts the most important choices in your life. I know the right choices, but struggle to fight the fear.