So today I’m not feeling too crash hot, but what can you do hey, keep going. I think a lot of mine is due to a lot going on at the moment, the more stress my body goes through the more my pain increases, the more my anxieties increase, and so forth.
How can you live a stress-free life it’s impossible, there are so many things you need to think about. Like, money because if you don’t have that then you can’t eat, pay your bills, or have a place to live.
Then you have the kids, you need to make sure they have all they need, keeping up with them is hard enough but we also need to, make sure you know they are doing OK, that’s a big one people miss or we forget to make sure we know about our kids. We also have partners, family and friends, so we also make sure we check in with them.
What time do we have for ourselves, making sure we are OK, making sure we take a break to look after us. Well, I know I don’t have time for that. Between looking after my family, housework, I never have time for me.
I stress myself out to the max, thinking of everything I need to do, plus trying to get myself better, it’s near impossible to do.
Today I thought I would let you in on my life with pain. This is one thing I struggle with daily. My pain started from an accident that happened while working, from there it has gathered it’s strength.
I suffer from Chronic Pain, I also suffer from Arthritis in my knees and spine, Degenerative disease in my hips, shoulders and neck. Intracranial Hypertension, Genetically caused Migraines, and Tinnitus (ringing of the ears), to name a few.
I take medication to keep the migraines at a down low, and the pressure down from the hypertension. I am unable to take pain medication now due to liver inflammation, which is making my pain even harder to deal with. I see a physiotherapist which helps, but that’s only while I’m there. Ice is my only comfort.
Living in pain is extremely difficult as it has made my body hypersensitive to many things such as touch, so hugging is excruciating to do. Having a shower is unbearable as having water touch my skin is like having hundreds of needles piercing your skin all at once, the pain from being in the shower too long can make me almost pass out. Even down to brushing my hair as it is unbearable as my head and even my hair is sensitive.
Sound is hard to deal with as it intensifies my migraines, and makes the tinnitus louder, it can also make it feel like I’m deaf as it is impossible for me to hear things. Sleeping is also a challenge as it’s hard to get comfortable, so I don’t have a full nights sleep.
Living with the pain is not easy, but I have many people helping me try to stabilize the pain and make it more comfortable for me to cope. I will be comfortable one day with perseverance.
Today is my struggle day after a day at the physiotherapist, these days are the hardest to get through. The pain becomes unbearable. Retraining my body to work again is the hardest most excruciating pain, but one I’m fighting to beat. It’s controlled my life for so long, and one I need to fight back.
Living with Chronic pain is difficult to live with as people don’t understand how it feels. The pain takes control of you. For me, human contact is unbearable as my body is hypo-sensitive to touch, this has not been easy as I have children, and I miss just cuddling them without pain.
For so long many doctors have just push drugs into me instead of listening to me. Chronic pain is such a thing and needs attention, not just medication. Now due to doctors not listening the medication has affected my organs, which now has made for more medical issues. Also effects my mental health as medication can’t be taken for pain or infections due to my organs.
Understanding chronic pain is so important as it is a medical issue and needs to be addressed. We do need help and understanding help. Not just doctors giving us drugs and sent away.
It all started 10 years ago while I was at work, it was a last minute fill in that changed my life forever. I worked as a personal care worker in peoples homes, and this day I went to pick up a client. As she went to get into my car she fell backwards on to me, my left arm was stuck under as she fell to the floor. At first all I cared about was her well fair. She got up, and I got her to her appointment, And she was checked at her appointment.
After I settled the pain was excruciating, I knew I need help. So off to the doctor I went. I went and had scans done. My shoulder and elbow were hurt. I couldn’t use the left arm as the pain was excruciating, so I was using my right arm. Using my right arm so much, I overused it and that was hurt too.
I didn’t have an understanding employer at the time, she bullied me, she use to tell everyone my health problems out loud in front of the whole office. She use to yell at me and belittle me in front of people. I became very depressed by this.
I could no longer work in the field of work I worked in. As time has gone on I have got worse physically and mentally. I am fighting to get better, I know I will never be the same physically or mentally, but I know there’s so much more to life. I always my children to get a job they will be happy with rather than a job they just do because you never know when it can be cut short. I didn’t get to do what I wanted and never will. I struggle every day with that I don’t want them to go through what I have it’s important to be happy in life.