When I think back about my childhood I come to realize that I showed a lot of signs of depression, I didn’t understand what I was doing was for a reason. I understand now that maybe what I was doing was due to how I was feeling.
I remember piecing my skin with a pin when I was only 7, I use to piece it that much I could peel the skin off, this went on for years. This all started after I was molested at age 6.
As I into pre-teen I tried smoking when I was only 10, I also tried drugs, I got into fights. I use to just go out with boys. I remember hating me so much then, this is when my behaviour changed dramatically.
Coming into my teens my behaviour continued to spiral out of control, My self-harm went from pinning to burning, I went into full-on drug and alcohol use. Partied non-stop, I also had suicidal thoughts and even tried to suicide.
When I go back and think about what I did I showed so many signs something was wrong. Yet no one noticed. When I read about suicides it makes me upset. Most of the time the signs are there they are just missed. I’m so lucky I’m still here, but some aren’t so lucky.
Warning signs can’t be ignored if you see a change in someone’s personality or behaviour PLEASE don’t ignore it because one day it may be the day of no return.